Stumbling Blocks: (courtesy of my LIVE bible)
Lost, scared, confused.
I'm lost in classes,
I'm scared about the future,
I'm confused about activities.
My confidence is shattered,
My heart is broken.
I want to give up...
But there are so many people looking.
I'm scared of failing.
All those things I've worked for-
They don't seem worth it.
Being lost, scared, confused...
They're stumbling blocks for me,
Stumbling blocks for many.
Today is a new day.
I broke down,
I prayed,
I'm still struggling
But today is a new day.
Each day brings new hope,
New opportunities to grow.
The day brings back loving smiles.
The struggles don't disappear,
You just think of them differently.
You can't hide from them,
You just have to reflect,
Learn to grow,
TRUST in the Lord,
TRUST those around you,
Listen to them.
LET them HELP you.
Everyone is lost, scared, confused at times.
Keep your hopes up.
Remember that it is OK to break down,
As long as you work through it.
DON'T ever give up!
There's ALWAYS someone, somewhere who BELIEVES in you,
COUNTS on you,
And LOVES you.
Work past the stumbling blocks,
They aren't YOU.
YOU are the believer-
YOU and GOD work together,
That is something that can never be taken away from you.
- So I got back to my dorm tonight and had Isaiah 1:18 pressed in my mind and I wasn't even sure what the verse said: "Come now, let's settle this," says the Lord. "Though your sins are like scarlet, I will make them as white as snow. Though they are red like crimson, I will make them as white as wool."
- I then found the Stumbling Blocks as I tried to look for a verse I was trying to remember.
- As I've been typing this I found: Oh Lord, down I go once more Down Lord, down I fall to this floor Oh Lord? Down I throw my pain Lord? Down I remain Help wash away my wrong Help make me strong Whisper right Hold this fight Oh Lord, hold my sword Please, I plead Down on my knees Oh just please Lord, forgive me Forgive me This can no longer be This can't be too late Oh Lord, Dropping my sword Lord? I'm so torn Lord, Please...Forgive me!
- I went to Friday Night Lights tonight and got more than what I expected. I'd been praying for God to show me that he is real to me in some way or another. I was thinking during the first few worship songs that it would be awesome if they played Never Let Go by Matt Redman, God surprised me in a different way, when Marvelous Light started playing I was awestruck. It brings out the kid in me still and that's exactly what everyone needs....to have a child like faith in God a lot of us once had and hopefully still have. (It has got to still be one of my favorite songs! There are so many other great songs out there that I haven't heard it in forever but I still remember all the words. I sang it at my cousin's wedding as well as a talent show in middle school. ) Anyways, I was brought to my knees. I literally felt like I could not stand. I was shaking; and NOT BECAUSE OF THE COLD. I could have fought it and probably stayed upright but I just gave in. There was a song that I don't remember exactly except for part of it was about God is holding us. As I was sitting there it was comfort for me. I don't know what lies ahead and I am scared sometimes. I want everyone I know to be saved if they aren't already and to be the best friend I can be to everyone I meet. I want my family to come to know God like I have. What other people think of me as always been a stumbling block for me. I want to share what I know with the world but I find some boundary against me; temptations and fears everyday. Everyday is a blessing from God. Every breathe we breathe could be our last; so why not use them for the glory of God through what you love to do.
- I am thankful for all of my friends I have made this first year as a college student. I don't know where I would be without them and I pray that they continue in their faith and let their walks with the Lord grow stronger.
- I rededicated my life to Christ tonight! I got back to my room and while I was reading what I've mentioned already, I simply started to cry. I broke down not entirely but enough. I am not saying I will never worry....I will. I am not saying I will never doubt...I do. It may not make all since to me...I doesn't. I am not saying I will not make mistakes....I have. I just know that I went from believing and following God full heartedly, so I thought to not. I would go to church every Sunday and Wednesday, I did some quiet times, not entirely regularly but I did them. I then focused more and more on school work, which is important don't get me wrong, but I was falling away from God. I was doing all this work for acceptance and worrying my head off until it came through. I don't need to worry, I will continue to study my butt off but I have faith that God is by my side. I will continue to worry about what others think, but this is normal. I hopefully will not do it as much and continue to step out of my comfort zone little by little but the fact is I am human just like you are and I make mistakes and have temptations. I hope I will make the right decisions with God by side but I will mess up, it's life.
- I look back now and see how my faith has changed and gone up and down and I read in a devotional that a life without God would seem like divorce. I completely agree. It is so hectic and it's just not good without God.
"Even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life, I won't turn back I know you are there"-You never let go-Matt Redman
I looked back at this video I made several years ago and I don't see how I could believe so much then if there wasn't a God. I know God exists and he made each of us.I don't want to just go through the motions and I'm going to try not to.
